Keep Breathing

I have seriously been neglecting my blogging the past couple of months but with the transition from a full time job to having full time school and a full time job, I have had no additional free time to gather my thoughts.
I am sitting here at work listening to the song Keep Breathing and it has really gave me a realization of my life. Troubles constantly over power us.
When taking a look back at these past couple of weeks I have great respect for the ones who are important to me. If good friends are willing to hurt you and let you go then they weren't such good friends to begin with. If someone talks about you behind you back, take it as a compliment that their thoughts are consumed with you but you are not even thinking about them. If a guy listens and is influenced by the opinions of those around him, it is not someone I would ever want to be with in the first place.
I am a strong independent woman, I am my own person, unique, and individual. And no matter what life throws my way I am just going to try and be the better person and know that God helps me handle the things that I surely would not be able to on my own!

Seasons

I love to play in the snow. The cold air softly kissing your cheeks, turning them to a rosy pink. Staying out just long enough that the tips of my toes and fingers begin to tingle. Appreciating the lifeless trees and frozen lands, admiring them for their beauty. While summer is the loved season by many, you have to hold a great admiration for the winter. Without the winter there would be no spring and no begining of new life.

The Challenge

Desirable: Worth having or wanting; pleasing, excellent, or fine.

What is wrong with women these days? It's all about the chase, that small game of hard to get. When someone only texts you are calls you every once in a while it makes that person way more "desirable."

The person that is standing there waiting for you is never the one you want. There is somthing about a challenge, it's exhilarating and can be mood changing. And just sometimes when you get what you want, it makes it all worth it.

Goodbye to You

Sometimes you still have the ability to make me sad, but not for what we lost. I have always wanted the best for you. You have so much to offer and to watch you throw it all away saddens me. I am starting to believe that you may never become the man that you could be.
At one time, I thought that I may be able to change you, or that you may want to change for me. I finally knew that day would never come. So this is goodbye, I wish you the best in all you do, but you were not good enough for me, I deserved better and I have finally started to find it.

Falling in Like

When you are not looking for it, is just when it finds you. The butterflies start to make your stomach tingle and you realize it has hit you. You are falling in like.
In my case it was the furthest thing from my mind and I seemed to be trying to avoid it. So how do you determine you are ready? I feel like I'm spending my time waiting around for a glorious "AH HAH" moment. I'm torn between the free spirited soul  and the monogamous women, caught in the middle of them trying to decide which side I want to be on. It is the common case of, should you follow your brain or your heart? I have always been a fan of my heart!

Self Reflection

For some people anger and hate are a part of their daily existence and to be happy means to bring others down. I believe the real source of this anger is from within. Taking a look inside and hating the person you see. Stomping on those around you and making others as angry as yourself may be a tempory fix, but you are still going to look back and hate the person that you are.
So the lesson is, first begin with trying to fix yourself and then you may start to realize that possibly, just possibly, you are actually the problem.

"You're Too Picky"

As I tell the stories of my recent escapades with boys from around the lovely state of North Carolina, there is always a listed reason as to why it wouldn't work.

1. "He's too short"
2. "He doesn't make me laugh"
3. "He has bad hair"
4. "He is a bad kisser"
5. "He's too clingy"
6. "He doesn't have a car"
7. "He doesn't like to do outdoors stuff"

And the list goes on and on.

The dating world is definitely a new one for me and being a single woman is quite a transition. I have no idea what I am doing but I am putting one foot forward at a time. I am beginning to look at each new day as an opportunity and a possible learning experience, figuring out who I am and how to be happy with just myself.
So, you say too picky, I say not settling. Self worth is about knowing what you deserve and I know that I deserve the best.